Well, I'm not getting very good at this everyday blog thing, but i'm trying. It's just been so crazy ever since we came to Seattle. Who knew that everything would be so different?
The last time i posted, i mentioned something about a dinner where my grandma had planned to tell us EVERYTHING. Well, we had that dinner and she still didn't come clean, but the most she told us was that she needed our help. She has some plans to start working with Shawn and the 4400 center again, now that it's reopening. And she's worried about the conflicts that would cause with her job at NTAC, but she really wants to get reconciled with her 4400 brothers and sisters. That's GREAT! but...umm...what does that have to do with us? According to what i've heard, Shawn is only worried about 4400s NOT positives. It seems to him we are the problem and if it hadn't been for us his life would be TEN times better. We are supposedly in a WHOLE other catagory. But I wasn't the one that put promicin out on the streeets, that was COLLIER. I just decided to take it. But i want to be apart and to help. I just don't know how yet.
I've been going crazy just sitting around the house and doing nothing. At least when we were out on our own, we had jobs and felt independent, but now i feel SO useless. Nicole feels about the same way, even though she didn't like her job, but she still enjoyed getting out of the house everyday. And Xavier is doing practically the same thing he has been doing since we left home, so he really doesn't care. I think grandma was starting to notice that i was about to crack, so she proposing a little "field trip" before we get busy "helping" her. She suggests that we go see our parents. (yeah...right)
Granted....it's been about a month since we've seen them and sure....they probably miss us. But they made their decision to kick us out and then wanted to change there minds about it when we finally got excited about leaving. Who's to say they won't try to control us AGAIN? and make us stay with them. And WHO is grandma to talk, we hadn't even seen OR heard from her in almost 2 years. Maybe that's why she wants us to go back to Cali for a visit. But i tell ya, I'm getting TIRED of all this crazy wild goose chase traveling. But I guess grandma's right, they are my ONLY parents, and the 4th of July is wednesday, and family matters. So i guess, i'll swallow my pride for a couple of days and drive down to Cali. This should be an interesting road trip......
HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY TO EVERYONE!
For those who are promicin positive like me, maybe someday we will get our independence back again, but until then...i guess all we can do is try to enjoy our limited freedom.
Alex
2 comments:
Having Shawn Ferrel open the 4400 Center that is very good news since after dispensation it makes the next step of having a program to certify an ability with a degree easier. Especially if you have a recognized place that's already earned some credibility doing it.
Most P+ can certainly benefit from training in their ability and having Heather Toby working with Shawn at the Center is definitely going to help in harnessing those abilities. To help matters I did make some school supplies for them to help show solidarity, to get them you can go to http://www.cafepress.com/giftedplus to show your support for The School for the Gifted P+
Hey Alex,
I haven't posted on your blog in a while. I can feel your frustration in all the moving around. Moving around was frustrating for me too (and it was a choice for me).
I think it's great that Shawn has re-opened the Center. Maybe soon he will come to believe that the Promicin Positives are on the same time.
I plan to go have a talk with him if I can so I'll see how that goes.
In the mean time, good luck when you go visit your family. I know how difficult that will be for you but the fact that you are putting in that effort and trying shows a lot of inner strength.
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