To Be Worried or To NOT Be Worried...THAT Is The Question.

I think the more i do this blog the MORE i'm getting worse at updating it. Maybe it's just hard to gather my thoughts and maybe it's just hard to sit down and write. I dunno...but i PROMISE i'm going to try and get better at this.

So, last week, i went to Cali for the holiday. It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. My parents were happy to see that we were still alive, they were kinda worried to find out that we were in Seattle, but when i told them that it was with grandma, my dad was relieved, but i think my mom was worried EVEN more. They also couldn't let us get away without pushing college ONE last time. So, between fireworks and barbaque they gave us the good 'ol "Education is Important" lecture with a subtle "we only want what's best for you at the end". We told them that we would "think" about it, but we weren't going to make any promises. All in All, It was an okay trip and i think we ALL needed it.

When we got back, Grandma was going CRAZY without us. The house was a wreck and there were dirty clothes stacked to the CEILING. It was hard to believe that we had only been gone for 5 days instead of 5 weeks. I guess grandma's getting a little confused with her "double" life. Right now, she not only works for NTAC, but now she's back working at the center. She is working VERY closely with Ms. Tobey. I think they plan to reopen the school. I don't think grandma can keep playing both sides of the fence, i think it's an either "us or them" type of situation. But she doesn't want to lose the power of working for NTAC or the joy she gets from working at the 4400 center. i'm sure it is hard to choose.

As for me, Xay, and Nicole, I decided to take my parents advice for once and i'm enrolling in school for the fall. I'm bring Xay down with me and i think Nicole wants to try college, too. Since Grandma said that we can stay as LONG as we like, as long as we help her around the house and with the "other" thing she wants us to do. So, why not go to school, for once i agree with my parents, Education is important and who knows, i could possibly LIKE school....IMAGINE THAT.

The only thing i'm still worried about is what's gonna happen next, but i guess you can't worry about tomorrow, you just have to live from day to day.

Alex

Family Matters

Well, I'm not getting very good at this everyday blog thing, but i'm trying. It's just been so crazy ever since we came to Seattle. Who knew that everything would be so different?

The last time i posted, i mentioned something about a dinner where my grandma had planned to tell us EVERYTHING. Well, we had that dinner and she still didn't come clean, but the most she told us was that she needed our help. She has some plans to start working with Shawn and the 4400 center again, now that it's reopening. And she's worried about the conflicts that would cause with her job at NTAC, but she really wants to get reconciled with her 4400 brothers and sisters. That's GREAT! but...umm...what does that have to do with us? According to what i've heard, Shawn is only worried about 4400s NOT positives. It seems to him we are the problem and if it hadn't been for us his life would be TEN times better. We are supposedly in a WHOLE other catagory. But I wasn't the one that put promicin out on the streeets, that was COLLIER. I just decided to take it. But i want to be apart and to help. I just don't know how yet.

I've been going crazy just sitting around the house and doing nothing. At least when we were out on our own, we had jobs and felt independent, but now i feel SO useless. Nicole feels about the same way, even though she didn't like her job, but she still enjoyed getting out of the house everyday. And Xavier is doing practically the same thing he has been doing since we left home, so he really doesn't care. I think grandma was starting to notice that i was about to crack, so she proposing a little "field trip" before we get busy "helping" her. She suggests that we go see our parents. (yeah...right)

Granted....it's been about a month since we've seen them and sure....they probably miss us. But they made their decision to kick us out and then wanted to change there minds about it when we finally got excited about leaving. Who's to say they won't try to control us AGAIN? and make us stay with them. And WHO is grandma to talk, we hadn't even seen OR heard from her in almost 2 years. Maybe that's why she wants us to go back to Cali for a visit. But i tell ya, I'm getting TIRED of all this crazy wild goose chase traveling. But I guess grandma's right, they are my ONLY parents, and the 4th of July is wednesday, and family matters. So i guess, i'll swallow my pride for a couple of days and drive down to Cali. This should be an interesting road trip......

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY TO EVERYONE!

For those who are promicin positive like me, maybe someday we will get our independence back again, but until then...i guess all we can do is try to enjoy our limited freedom.

Alex